Wow, I'm glad I have you back. Def. another great story. Glad you shared.

 

I see a lot of people talking about going to friends and family. My problem is that I dont have much of a family or many friends, due to the ex not liking them. I live over 2 hours away from my mother. She is all that I have in my life. Once she is gone I dont know what I would do. I never really had a traditional family. Just my mom, my grandma, and I.
The ex is leaving for England in about a week and a half. We talk but we always manage to fight. She was my first love. I am going to miss her. Atleast now she is only a phone call away and if I need her or want to see her she is only 15 mins away. As terrible as we were together its hard to let go. We broke up because she didnt trust me around other girls and she never liked my friends, who I blew off to be with her. Love def sucks

Hope this makes sence. I just got of the phone with her so it was on my mind. Plus its 2 am and im tired as .

 

damn... I hope your situation get better. Love is a hard thing to give advice on.

 

one of the biggest lessons I learned was that you don't have to go through all the crap of payback... especially if you are a good person and the person dicking with you isn't. Fortunately or unfortunately people get what is coming to them... and you really don't have to lower yourself to them... they'll get theirs soon enough.. and you don't necessarily have to be the one that does it. Stupid people will keep being stupid until something bad happens to them... it just makes sense... and if you have good intentions and know the right things to do... keep on doing them....

I know it sounds cheesy... but it's true.

 

All sorts of things have happened to me over the last 20 years that contributed to my screen name over there. The "2" just means that it's the plate on the S ("Ruined" is on my truck, "Ruined 3" was on my 'lude). Lost my father at 12, lost loves, blah blah blah. I've never fully recovered from most of it, so I guess I'm still kinda low. Or as I like to put it; ruined.

 

A girl that I thought was my soulmate destroyed me. Mentally and physically I was truly a mess. I don't have any "wow" recovery story though, I just took sh!t a day at a time and I moved out of NY shortly after to be back with my friends from college. Unfortunately the demons come back and haunt me (even now.. 6 years later) and I feel my heart break all over again, even with my current gf of approx 5 years it's not the same. It definitely hardens a person.

I put my dog, Duchess (who my S is named after), to sleep last year. That was a horrible experience to go through since she had stomach cancer and was having trouble breathing and walking. I had her for almost 14 years.

It's funny how I can definitely say I haven't had the perfect life growing up and while i'm doing well in all aspects now, nothing got me so low as those incidences. Those who know me know that I usually let things roll off my back pretty easily, because of my tough skin.

 

Pretty crazy guys. I can honestly say that I am glad all of you are coming or came out of it and made a better life for yourselves. Remember, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Hang in there!

Duc